Ishhh..bile nak study nih. Every weekend jer ada 5-6 open houses. Dahtuh makan banyak.

Suka tak suka kene baca jugak.

Before i continue with my main topic today, i just wanna tell you that

I think that my keblurran telah berkurang.
WHoaa. I realised it today. HaHa.

Agree? No?

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Tak suka ke suka??

Saya tak suka bila saya lalu depan orang sedang merokok or mereka lalu depan saya kerana bau rokok itu sangat memeningkan dan semestinya tak wangi.

Saya rasa tak selesa bila keluar rumah tak pakai eyeliner. Its like going out naked.Haha

Saya lagi tak suka bila tiap kali jumpa atau cakap nak beremo jer walaupun saya suka mendengar luahan hati orang lain.

Saya tak berapa comfortable bila orang tgk my face lame2 macam tengah kira baper banyak spots n pimples yg ade kt muka

Saya lagilaa tak suka bila semuanya nak ikut kehendak suke hati dia jer.Ingat dia sape laa sangat.

Saya sangat geram bila laptop/internet lembab macam siput rase cam nak baling2 jer bende nih

Saya rasa tak best bila keluar pakai sempoi je sebab xtau nak pakai baju ape

Saya sangat tak suka bila melihat kerajaan mementingkan diri sendiri dan manusia2 yang berpangkat dalam bidang politik pakai baju mahal2 guna duit kerajaan.

Saya rasa benci bila tengok org lain atau saye sendiri kene tindas. Oleh sebab itu saya cepat marah.

Saya bengang bila orang carik pasal dengan saya kerana saya kurang kesabaran bergantung kepada situasi.

Saya rasa pelik dan tertanya-tanya kenapa dorg taknak kasi banyak2 free gifts n diskaun bile beli barang.Hehe

Saya ingin tahu kenapa kite orang kene tunduk kepada Sultan dan mendaulatkannya kerana bagi saya mereka hanya manusia biase jer.

Saya tergamam bila orang bercakap tentang body figure seseorang atau saya sendiri depan orang lain atau saya sendiri kerana bagi saya mereka tak respect orang lain.

Saya rasa menyampah bila saya sedang bercakap tengok muka org tuh dia pandang tempat lain utk buat 'muka' dekat kawan dia.Macam nak mintak pelempang.Haha

Saya akan rasa bersalah kalau satu hari xblaja.Haha

Saya rasa ayat yang paling rude ialah 'kurang ajar' sebab bile dengar tuh buat sakit hati.Hehe

Saya berharap agar maid saya skrang nih jangan mengade lelebih sebelum saya marah dia teruk2.ish3.

Saya lagi berharap supaya saya dapat master debate in english dengan lebih cemerlang walaupun rase macam impossible melihatkan kepada english saya yang semakin teruk.

Saya lagi sangat berharap agar satu hari nanti saya dapat berjumpa dengan Kim Hyun Joong;)

Saya suka bila saya on handphone tiap2 pagi ade orang hantar 'Good Morning!!!!' or 'Have a wonderful day' or ape2 yang menarik cuz it really makes my day.

Saya lagi suka bila saya tengok satu hari tuh takda sorang pun dalam rumah ini menjerit2

Saya selesa bila lepas mandi di bilik air sendiri dengan sabun mandi yang berbuih2.Hehe

Saya suka bila kawan2 bukan Islam senyum dan saling bertegur dengan saya kerana saya paling menyampah dengan racist.

Saya rase macam nak makan cake skrang nih;)

Saya sangat gembira bila dapat free gifts dan hadiah dari orang lain kerana itu membuatkan saya happy

Saya teringin nak blanje my family and friends shopping kalo duit saya banyak.

Saya suka tengok orang senyum lebar nampak gigi walaupun gigi kuning,hitam,orange,biru atau rainbow colour.Hehe

Saya suka pegi open house sebab dapat makan sedap2.Hehe

Saya rase sampai nih jer kot.Nanti tambah lagi. Macam pelik plak ber-saya saya.

Suatu hari itu, kedengaran suara keriangan anak anak kecil berlari lari kecil di sekitar rumah.

Suatu hari itu, kelihatan anak anak kecil bermain bunga api di tepian jalan.

Suatu hari itu, wan, atuk, pakcik, makcik, maklang, paklang, mak ucu, ucu, paklong, umi, mama dan papa bersama sama dengan sanak saudara duduk bersila di atas tikar mengkuang sambil menunggu azan berkumandang.

Namun, itu dahulu. Sekarang??

Tiada lagi celoteh wan, atuk saudara mara sambil menganyam ketupat.

Sambil mengisi beras dalam ketupat. Sambil merebus ketupat. Sambil memasak.


Ahh..rindu nyee.

Dulu, tiap kali melawat wan dan atuk, sambal goreng kegemaranku susah tersedia di meja. Sambal sotong kering kegemaranku sudah siap dimasak. Tinggal makan je.

Itu dulu.

Sekarang??

Sekarang lain. Semenjak pemergian arwah wan dan atuk, suasana sangat berbeza.

Tiap kali pagi raya, aku terbayangkan suasana malam raya beberapa tahun dahulu. Suasana di pagi raya.

Lawak jenaka sanak saudara.

Rindu..

Aku teringat adik ku bertanya

"bila kita mau balik kampung"

Takda kampung macam mane nak balik dik.

Maka, hargailah setiap detik masa yang anda luangkan bersama keluarga.

Nih tiap kali datang je, internet on. Tiga, empat komputer beratur atas meja. Mulut ikut sedap hati je cakap.

Anak anak muda zaman sekarang.
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Selamat Hari Raya!

Maaf Zahir dan Batin

xoxo,
aryna

Best nye kalau ade bende nih.

I have a confession..

a confession that i've been longing to write it down and that i don't have the courage to speak up for myself. I was called to write this post after i read an article from a local newspaper.

Ever since i was a small kid, back in primary school i have always been teased of being so petite and skinny. Not only the students, the teachers did so. I was really sad and depressed but no one understood me. Not a single tiny bits.

When it was time to line up, i'll be the first or the second person who will be lining up at the front row. Well, i don't mind at all actually.

I can still remember clearly this conversation with one of the teachers among my friends in a class after UPSR has ended.

"Aryna lagila pakai baju nih(the baju kurung i was wearing) tah2 sejak standard 1 lagi kot" , it was a teacher saying this ok!

and they just laugh.

Omg.

My heart crashes into million, zillion, gazillion pieces.

And what did i do?? i just kept quite. Gosh.

Sometimes, i blame God for created me of being skinny and small. But soon, when i learnt more about Islam in my sekolah agama, i realised that we aren't supposed to say that to God. I was grateful that God created me with all, complete physical features.

Now, dealing with the relatives. Omg.
Most of my relatives, cousins, aunts and uncles are big sizes or they are just normal.
I have always hated when we are having family gathering or anything similar to that. Its just simply because they always tease me of being soo skinny and that i don't eat much.

I once locked myself in the bathroom just to cry and of course i don't want them to see me crying. Duhh!

To be honest, i eat a lot! Really. I can tell you, if you're staying at my house, you'll be seeing me eating every 1 or 2 hours or even every 30 minutes.
Plus, my dad always go for outstation and bring back lots and lotsa chocolates. So, u can see me opening the fridge like many many times.
Sometimes, during weekend, i eat lamb chop, spaghetti or ape2 la to satisfy myself.

Soon, when i learnt about Science, i made my early conclusion that i might have a huge tapeworm in my intestines and they're like opening they're mouth getting ready to eat what i have just eaten. Haha. Silly.

Well, that was primary. Ever since the conversation, i hated my primary school life that i don't wanna return back there or even think about it.

Last time, i don't like to shop for clothes or jeans because its very hard to find my size. The clothes, when it is big, it'll be damn big and when it is small, it'll be damn small. As for jeans, it cannot fit nicely on my waist. I have to sew at the corner of the zip to make it tight.

But now, u give me the money, i'll shop till i drop. Haha

Soon, when i've grown up a lil bit back in Form 1, i told myself i have to stand up for myself. I have to speak up. So, step by step i did it.

I joined the senamrobik team and even performed for teachers day etc, go for homestay programme in Japan, camping to boost my confidence level.

From there, i learnt to speak up.

Next, i joined syarahan to represent my school. If im not mistaken, that was my first time to represent my school. I was nervous and i forgotten my lines. First time weyhh.

But that didn't stop me from trying. I've tried syair, sajak and debate and boyy..i loved it!

Now, whenever they tease me or make fun of something, i will always try to speak up and say whats right and whats wrong.

Ok ok. Back to the main subject here.

Soon, when i learnt about Biology, i realised that being skinny is genetically inherited. Its in the genes. But came to think about it, my younger sisters are not skinny. They are even bigger and heavier than me. Ahh..whatever.

I still don't get it why people which i think already have their ideal body figure and just the right weight, they still want to go for liposuction or weight loss center programme.

Isn't it much healthier to be in the gym and getting those hot abs and muscles rather than undergo liposuction. Or besides that, eat accordingly. Haihh.

Whatever it is, how petite and skinny am i, i am grateful that i am born with complete physical features.

So, people out there, stop saying to people or even me whether they are fat or skinny or keding or lidi or gajah or whatever it is, they are humans too. You don't know how it hurt them so badly. I know. I can understand how they feel cause i've been through it before.

I am grateful that i have the courage to defend myself, stand up for myself, but what about those who have low self-esteem?? Think about it people!

That is why, i don't say to them whether they're fat or skinny or whatever there is to be called. You'll make them feel even more worse and crushes the left over of their self-esteem and confidence level.

I only did when you did that to me.Muahaha.

Thank you for spending your time to read this.

I can feel the study mood now.

I can feel it now.

Yes now.

Oh yes.

Yes.

Yes.

The mood is coming.

*seconds after opening the book

Ahhh..its gone.

I guess that's what happening to everyone right?;)

Happy studying!


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Oklaa.. macam xsesuai jer.

Happy lepaking! Happy watching tv! Happy going out! Happy holiday!

Err..happy going back to school??

p/s:i can't wait to go to school.thats the only time i can study with almost 100% concentration.

I like this view, the scenery, the atmosphere.
It was my cousin's wedding reception in Calgary,Canada.


The bride and groom. Aww..

and what i like the most is

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the converse sneakers all the way from Malaysia.Hehe.

Orang skrang kahwin rock tau. I likee!